These Are The Days to Remember
I sat on our new, temporary front step tonight, looking over at the vacant Franks & Beans house and felt so much joy. I know it was a house of suffering but that suffering came into my house so I will celebrate, even at others’ suffering.
I feel joyful.
Do you know what it’s like to have a decade-old burden taken off of your shoulders? It’s amazing!
My son will no longer have an easy time getting back into a drug world. His drug world is gone. If he wants to get back into it, he’s going to have to work for it.
I leave for New York on Thursday and I’m looking forward to it. My son has been in a manic phase of his bipolar illness and it’s exhausting for me, as well as him.
I need some ME time in New York. I’m going with Nugget and his sister and I hope that I can get them to go and do stuff together while I do nothing more than take my book to Bryant Park, Union Square, Central Park and the New York Public Library.
Is that weird?
Who goes to New York to read books?
I am so excited!
I also want to spend some one-on-one time with Claudia. Usually I’m accompanied by someone else and I really want some alone time with her. I adore her. If we can just go for a walk around her neighborhood, it’s all I want!
I get to check and see how well my exercise regime is working. Nugget’s office is on the fourth floor of a walk-up and it’s incredibly difficult to climb those stairs. They are really steep! I talked to him tonight (he’s already in New York) and he said he can tell the difference, climbing those stairs, after going to the gym for a month. I’ve been going almost two months so I might be able to jog up them rather than have to stop at the model’s apartments on the 3rd floor and take a break.
I’ll let you know!
These are happy days right now. I’m going to enjoy them while I can!